What do I think?

QUESTION 1:
When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you think?

ANSWER:
Am i cute? Will they spare me for being cute?
What nationality do i look like today?
Why did i sleep so late?
Is this really the body i was given? Should i worry with doing better? Or am i just cute enough to get my message across and not have anyone distracted by my apperance?

online surveys are a waste of time, anyway.

into the shower
5 in the morning
pre sleep rather than
post wake

the water is cold again
i dont want to get in
but the new message for me is to try things right before i am about to give up
so i step into the cold shower

hey i think
at least it will wake me up. i wont need that coffee now

and the water turns warm
and i get the boy
and i move forward one space
but i do not pass go
nor come close
no 200 dollars

i listen to pop music
to pump myself up
for a day of finding out a lot of potential answers to late questions

will i die soon?
will i pass anything at all this semester?
can i still drive?
what do i tell my parents i have been doing?

but at least i know
through my dreams upon dreams
as well as my little lessons learned in showers and everyday tasks
that just thowing myself onto the track is the best way to take the train
i either get hit
or jump on
either way
i went somewhere.

As for the question you asked me?

Why care about what's on t.v.?
I obviously can't do anything about it?
Well if that's the mentality, and the truth
Then why not kill me now? And be one step closer
To wiping out the dying race of people who give a shit

My sole purpose is change for the better
But, if I can't change anything
Well then, by all means
Shoot me. I would rather die than accept.

--pace